Friday, July 1, 2011

Then and Now.

Today's Song in My Head: "Feel This" by Bethany Joy Galeotti (I love this song right now - I actually just love her music).

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2001. I graduated high school, got engaged, found out I was pregnant with my son, and got married. It was a busy year. The best year of my life. The 2 albums that put me in my "happy place" were the Aerosmith's two disc A Little South of Sanity and the Varsity Blues soundtrack.

I loved musicals, disney, softball and cheerleading. I loved to dance and did it often. I loved four wheeler riding, roller coasters, fast cars, and staying out all night. I ate pizza and taco bell most every night for dinner. My idea of breakfast was a frozen burrito cooked in the microwave and covered with a slice of cheese. My favorite dessert was cheesecake. I hated alfredo sauce, chinese food, salad dressing, and potatos. I didn't eat beef. I was fearless, fun, and free.

My hobbys consisted of cooking and reading.

TEN YEARS LATER....

I am totally different. I still relate my life to music, but my "happy music" is different every day. I still love musicals, disney, softball and cheerleading. I love to dance, but I usually don't do it where any one can watch. I am not as good as I used to be, or at least I don't feel like I am. Those who have seen me swear I can still move, but I don't feel "sexy" doing it like I used to, so I don't. I don't eat as much junk as I used to back in the day, and my tastes have definitely changed.

Ten years ago, yogurt and granola would have made me gag. Today, I can't get enough Lemon Tree frozen yogurt with granola. I could drink alfredo sauce and I LOVE some loaded baked potatoes or loaded smashed potatoes. I am an avid couponer, a mother hen, and I prefer to be in bed by 10 on a late night. I am dull and boring, but I definitely love my life at this point. I would prefer to be at home with my family every night rather than out partying for sure.

I realized a few months ago how much I changed. I also realized how much of myself that I have lost in the last ten years. I am trying to fix that. We will see how that goes. Since I have started working on myself, I have noticed that I am truly happier. I am just me. I cut alot of the excess off and I couldn't be prouder. I don't care if I hurt anyone's feelings in the process, as long as I am me and I am happy in the end.

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